You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, "Why not?"

DAGÖ..."On pidu lõppenud, aeg on asuda nüüd teele. On silmad rasked hommik saabus üleöö. Teovõime tigudel, mul tegu et saaks käima keele..."...

2008-04-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

DAGÖ "Jää"

me ju teame süsteeme
me ju teame ja muud
uksed kinni kui teeme
enne viimaks kui puutuvad suud

lootusetult lootes sinu keelega paitust
saamatuses saamatult ma vastan kui koer
meeletused karjutud ja algabki vaikus
julgustades teineteist pead lahkuma
jää jah jah jää jää jah jah jää
on meie vahel jää jah jah jää
lõikab vahetevahel jää jah jah jää

olematud karjäärid
mõeldamatud maneerid me sees
sul on ilusad sääred
kõik mu aurahad tuhmuvad ees

DAGÖ "Hiired tuules"

Punased on silmad
Küll on lämbed ilmad
Ja ma teen tööd,
ma teen tööd,
ma teen tööd
Ei ma ütle iial
Ära, tooge siia
Veel juurde tööd,
oi, ma teen tööd,
ma teen tööd
Harva saame kokku
tihti jookseb kokku
ma veel teen tööd,
no ma teen tööd,
ma teen tööd
kui jääb puudu aega
homselt juurde laenan
ja jälle tööd,
ma teen tööd,
ma teen tööd

Helde aeg, kes annaks heldelt aega
Siis te taevalaega ma kataks end
kui aurab tee ja muudki veel on
näib ja näib ja näibki jäi
ja jäi ja jäigi tühjaks mu tool,
mu lemmik tool, sõprade pool

Ikka tunnen puudust
kui ma aknaruudust
näen sooja ööd,
kui ma teen tööd,
ma teen tööd
Puuduste puudus
saamata jään'd suudlus
sest ma teen tööd,
ikka teen tööd,
ma teen tööd

Helde aeg....

Helde aeg,
kord on mul heldelt aega
siis mu taevalaele ootan ma teid
siis joome teed ja laual muudki veel on
näib ja näib ja näibki jäi ja jäi,
taas jäigi tühjaks te tool
ja kogu hoov nad teevad tööd

...peataolek päiksetõusu ajal bussipeatuses, pääsemiseks ainus viis on hommikul kell viis, mida jutt on sogasem, seda seltsis segasem...

2008-04-16T05:58:00.000-07:00

DAGÖ "Üks hetk päevast jäi puudu"

üks hetk päevast jäi puudu
võib-olla esimene hommikutund
üks hetk mille pärast tundub,
et magamisest nägin vaid und, nägin vaid und

imelik, et päevatöö võib kesta terve öö
imelik, et pole und, kui loidab koidutund
imelik, et magada kui tahadki ei saa
unetu nii üksi on, ei saa aidata

üks hetk päevast jäi puudu
võib-olla esimene hommikutund
üks hetk mille pärast tundub,
et magamisest nägin vaid und, nägin vaid und

kaksteist kurja hoovikõutsi on siiski liig, mis liig
nagu seitse halba viiuldajat prooviks võtta SI-d
kui kuidagi saaks öö ja päeva jaotada
ei saa und ja armastust ära kaotada

üks hetk päevast jäi puudu
võib-olla esimene hommikutund
üks hetk mille pärast tundub,
et magamisest nägin vaid und, nägin vaid und

lõpuks valgus tunnelis, ideed on paberil
summutavad hääled peas nüüd helid klaveril
lõpeb öö on valmis töö ja püha tõdemus:
töötamine öösiti on vilets vabadus

Giddyup... Yada Yada Yada

2008-03-21T13:37:00.000-07:00

Movies and TV shows are something that I personally (usually with J)... enjoy... From now on I will talk about some I really enjoy... I'd like to start this whole big discussion with Seinfeld. Well... who hasn't seen it, SHOULD see it 100% as it is funny and witty. Jerry Seinfeld himself is an outstanding comic... The things he says are absolutely great and it is not meant in this topic but Lee Evans is also mentionable. For now these two comics to me are the best (as I have seen besides them Chris Rock and honestly...didn't enjoy his act - no offense). But back to Seinfeld... Gosh! Elaine, Kramer (he is the one who adds extra fun to this show - no doubt!), George and Jerry... and Newman :)! I could watch it over and over and every time I laugh :D! It's actually funny because everything said there makes sense... Some quotes are actually funny when you have seen this show but still... witty witty witty... that's all I can say :)
George Costanza: Do you ever get down on your knees and thank God you know me and have access to my dementia?
George is actually sad person and a bit depressing but I guess this is what makes him so goddamn funny :)
Jerry: I'm not gay. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Elaine: I'm not a lesbian. I hate men, but I'm not a lesbian.
It's like... people do tend to think that homosexual's are really being making fun of or ridiculed and really "not that there's anything wrong with that" - isn't it?! But Elaine on the other hand is purely funny... and the thing she said is so so true :)...
Jerry: You see, Elaine, the key to eating a black and white cookie is that you wanna get some black and some white in each bite. Nothing mixes better than vanilla and chocolate. And yet still somehow racial harmony eludes us. If people would only look to the cookie, all our problems would be solved.
I find it genial - it is so true again :)... And I think Jerry is so right at this one :)
George: I have a bad feeling that whenever a lesbian looks at me they think "That's why I'm not a heterosexual."
Well... and again...typical George :)... depressing and sad :)... in a truly funny way :)
George: Jerry, what gives you pleasure?
Jerry: Listening to you. I come in here, I listen to you, I feel better. Your misery is my pleasure.
:)
George: Divorce is always hard. Especially on the kids. 'Course I am the result of my parents having stayed together so ya never know.
No comments on this one...
Jerry: Surveys show that the #1 fear of Americans is public speaking. #2 is death. Death is #2. That means that at a funeral, the average American would rather be in the casket than doing the eulogy.
:D
George: You have the rooster, the hen, and the chicken. The rooster goes with the chicken... So who's having sex with the hen?
:D:D:D
George: Oh, see? that's why I don't have cable in my house. Because of that naked station. If I had that in my house, I would never turn it off. I wouldn't sleep, I wouldn't eat. Eventually, firemen would have to break through the door, they'd find me sitting there in my pajamas with drool coming down my face.
They have taken many issues to the show from NY itself... Unfortunately I haven't been there YET ;) and I think it is just genial - really...

Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut.

2008-03-20T09:49:00.000-07:00

I envy people who drink - at least they know what to blame everything on.
Drinking is either bad or good... Which one then? I enjoy having fun and being with my friends... although... usually it involves drinking - as if it is not possible to hang out with each other without alcohol. But actually it is funny that most people drink and whilst doing it they start talking - A LOT! And also - about everything. Sometimes I wonder if what people promise/say whilst being drunk and later on remember it and act accordingly to their promises, would that make world a better place after all? My J... He is the kind of person who you talk to whilst being drunk and get to know ALL the things he would not say whilst being sober - well, I believe these things because they make sense... I as "Why you act like that?" and he says "Well because this and that and this and that!" and I'll be all like "Well THAT'S why!" and be all surprised... The above sentence about drinking and doing later on all you promised during drinking... This sentence is from Hemingway and a wise one I must add. Really... If one would even try to do that - is it even possible... Being drunk is usually relaxing and I personally feel... free and most of the time OH SO GREAT (whilst having WAY TOO much to drink... melancholic and sick is what I start to feel :S - mostly, but not all of the time - luckily)! The next morning is of course doubtful :) but I don't usually give stupid promises or speak of things I would NEVER even consider... But I've seen people talking like that at it is just hilarious... Arguments amongst couples is of course an usual thing - usually terrible thing to happen at the party... It's like... WHY????????
Electricity is actually made up of extremely tiny particles called electrons, that you cannot see with naked eye unless you have been drinking.
Then again... why not, eh? This above sentence show very nicely the results of drinking - you get wiser and you see more than you did before - your sight becomes "clearer"... Arguments show that indeed, people are alive and that there is something actually bothering them (something about the other half) - unless the other half of the couple is just trying to start an argument in spite of something (let's say... not liking the other half drinking.... well... duh!). When my last blog was all "whiny-yucky" women's stuff then now it's almost more like men-stuff. I do not get angry or upset at J for drinking - it is what most men do and arguing is more like throwing oil into the fire. A few beers after a hard week is NOTHING... and I usually drink with him - although I prefer not to drink till' I drop :)... I've seen girls getting all loosened-up and stuff like that - not good, not good at all and in a way it is sad. I remember always EVERYTHING that happened the night before, even being SO SO drunk - it's funny because most people I know are blank from the point they started to get really drunk and in a way I feel superior... like... WOW, I remember as if it happened 5 minutes ago and then the best part... talking about what then happened and seeing their faces just makes me laugh :)... Thanks to my super-memory I have won a lot of bets because when people think I won't remember I do and too perfectly :)...
Drinking beer doesn't make you fat, it makes you lean... Against bars, tables, chairs, and poles.

They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

2008-03-20T03:38:00.000-07:00

It is really hard to understand some things that happen around us and with us... For example - take relationships. Lies and misunderstandings are the ones that make relationships extra hard for us - to cope or just to be around and make a "nice" face while being so sad and crushed you just want to die. Really, it happens and what if it happens not just once in two months period but constantly - let's say for one month straight?! Right now I'm talking from woman's point of view as I really do not have any idea what men are thinking - no offense if some was taken! Anyway... you meet a guy you fall in love and things could not be any better until after some time... BANG! things fall apart - yet so quietly you at first don't even notice. Well... you love someone and you just want things to be great great great and never change - but change is inevitable, which is why one just needs to show some direction towards what a change is wanted to be taken...
Any fool can tell the truth, but it requires a man of some sense to know how to lie well!
Keeping secrets from one another requires great wisdom. Because secrets actually do come out and do hurt either way the other person. Breaking up is easy, but to patch things up takes some real time and real courage. But why are secrets occurring? Why one can't lie THAT good that secrets won't come out - because then things would be immaculate and perfect? Wouldn't they?
I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you.
This is a quote that goes perfectly with my point I'm trying to get to - I personally am not that crushed of the lying but the fact that you do get more suspicious than you were before. Lying does not go without consequences - although we all have our dirty little secrets that no-one really knows. we have those little lies we think no-one should know - not even our closest ones. But isn't it so that when keep in secret talking to someone - having secretive phone calls (however your girlfriend did know that you were lying about who you were talking), secretive messaging... WTF?! - seeing that the one you're with is not a brain dead moron you ought to act accordingly. Well... phone calls for phone calls and messaging to messaging BUT when you are fronted by the fact that you lied and you were noticed you do not turn it against the one who actually realized it but you try to make things better! Isn't it logical? So that leaves me with a question... Is it normal or is it ridiculous - trying to ignore the fact that you did something wrong by showing in some way to the other person that the she was wrong to find out that you were keeping secrets? Does it show some conscience or does it show how "small" the lier is to actually try not to answer for the deeds been done by not telling the whole truth by insulting the other person by saying that the other one is a moron and should apologize for confronting him and letting him know about finding out what was going on!?
All in all - we are the ones who need to make some changes if we want to and we, personally, are the ones who actually change together with time - whether we bring new things into our change with us and leave the past behind is up to any one of us individually...
But really - if you NEED to have secrets and YOU DESPERATELY want them to stay that way - be a bit more wiser and artistic (wisdom to know when and where to interact and deal with your secret and art to know how to patch some visibility in your path where some parts of your secrets have come out). Actually writing about it did make me feel a bit better... getting it all out of the system... did purify the situation in a sense... BUT when things after all the "stupidity" turn to a more positive way - it does make me feel better and it does make me feel as if things are again fine... however - a bit of a doubt still lies within, but this is a bridge to be crossed in time... :)
When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power.